Friday, April 4, 2014

Annals of Puberty 2.0

I've been on hormones a little over a month now, and though I'm naturally impatient for round two of puberty to get going full force, there have already been some adjustments.

  • This spironolactone is making me thirsty. Constantly thirsty. I shouldn't be surprised -- though I take spiro as an anti-androgen (anti-testosterone drug), it's primarily a diuretic. It's still a bit of an adjustment, considering how bad I was about staying hydrated before, even on a medication that gives me the shakes if I don't stay hydrated. 
  • My nipples are getting a little nipply. By which I mean, they've gotten quite sensitive, including below the surface, and are erect a large fraction of the time. I'd like to think this means some growth around there is right around the corner, but I know that's still months off. Not complaining in the least, though.
  •  ED. I don't get erections anymore, hallelujah. At all. It was very confusing at first and tricked me into thinking I'd lost my libido. One of the things about living my life as a guy is that arousal was inextricably linked to erections and the two weren't fully separate in my mind. So with no physiological aspect to it, it felt cold and abstract, like I was thinking about it without actually thinking or feeling it. Fortunately, my body found a replacement, of a sort.
  • I literally drool instead now. I'm not even joking. I salivate until it drips out the corners of my mouth. I don't know how this started happening. I don't know why drooling specifically. But now I actually drool over women I'm attracted to instead of the previous physiological response. It manages to be awkward, amusing, reassuring, and a little guilty all at the same time.
  • I can get choked up now. That was previously, outside particularly vulnerable mental states, impossible for me. I'm actually looking forward to more effect in this direction; my near-absolute inability to cry normally kinda sucked.

I've also learned a couple interesting things about how this may affect my eyes, of all things:

  • Hormone therapy can alter your retinas. This can cause subtle changes in how colors and depth perception are experienced.
  • Hormone therapy can alter eye lens shape (!). So there's a chance my vision won't be 20/15 anymore. I'm fine with that, even if I end up needing mild glasses.
So where does that all put me now? Taking my estrogen and spiro religiously. [actual pre-editing stop to take estrogen and spiro] Also working on including more girl mode features (like voice) when I have to be in boy mode. Though I skipped it this past month due to progress on this front being as slow as expected, #nipsoffreedom will continue as scheduled on April 26th (2 months in), and I'll start doing some photos to document my facial changes.

2 comments:

  1. I'm uber stoked for you!

    But just as I was about to click "publish," I realized, oh no... bra shopping... May the Force be with you when that time comes. <3

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    1. Oh FSM. Finding bras that fit is so easy now with standard-sized prosthetics. Fitting them to real boobs, over and over as they grow, is gonna be fun /sarcasm. Thanks for the reminder :/

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